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love can’t save you: a pete/mikey otp post (i’m so sorry about this)

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"and you imagine yourself moving deep into the summer and disappearing, and for me it was always with you"

some people call it pikey which i suppose if there were an official ship name that would be it, but i genuinely cannot call it that, mostly due to the fact that pikeys, here in ye olde england, are gypsies. so it’s kind of weird

ANYWAY: pete and mikey is a strange one because although the evidence is absolutely fucking overwhelming and not a lot of people doubt it existed in some capacity bc lbr, there actually aren’t a whole lot of photos (there’s a reason but we’ll get to that). so basically this is going to be less picspammy and more WORDY. but we like words, right? PETE REALLY LIKES WORDS SO YOU SHOULD TOO

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THE BEGINNING

pete and mikey allegedly met as early as 2003 when my chemical romance played the fireside bowl in chicago, ider where i read this anymore, but HeyChris apparently alleged that he, pete and joe watched their show. buuuuut we have zero evidence of concrete friendship at this point, just that they had MET. both bands then played side stages (teal and maurice) at warped tour 2004, which is the first time they toured together.

though the bands only vaguely mentioned each other at this point in time, and while there were no real references to mikey from pete, pete started to throw my chem lyrics into his Q&A answers…….

annnnnnnd this is where things get super interesting. on april 16th 2005, mikey was spotted at the fueled by ramen show watching fall out boy in house of blues (orlando, fl). he was also wearing the famous WHITE DENIM JACKET. which actually belongs to pete (as far as I know???). so it’s probably safe to assume that they were fucking friends at this point

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ALSO it’s around this period that SWEET LITTLE DUDES (♥) in relation to pete and mikey surfaced! (also interesting to note that the term had been used by mikey (or gerard? i can’t remember now) in like, bullets-era which sort of means he allowed pete to take it and make it theirs. that’s my interpretation anyway, whatever

SO, mikey and pete are in a gang called sweet little dudes which consists of just the two of them bc they are dumb, adorable losers (actually they’re in another gang too, which again only consists of the two of them, but that one’s for later, more depressing times), and pete really doesn’t like you to forget it. for one, he made an actual shirt, A SHIRT:

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and two: he referenced it, well, a lot, in fact it became his fucking default answer ugh just DON’T FUCKING LOOK AT ME

fall out boy website Q&As in which pete references MCR and/or sweet little dudes:

Q: We want to have sex with Gerard Way. And I mean full blown pumping his gas while he is handcuffed to the bed sex. Care to hook a couple of sistas up?
A: me and mikey way have a gang called The Sweet Little Dudes. you might see us on warped tour.

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Q: After your show in Des Moines, during all of the picture taking, squealing, and autograph signing, I took a picture with you (Pete). Upon realizing I was far too tall, I made a comment along the lines of “I am an ogre” or something like that, and you responded in a very sweet way. Anyway, to my question- what is your ideal height for a girl?
A: i have always kind of been a little dude (hence our gang sweet little dudes)- i have no ideal height for a girl. i have dated girls taller and shorter than me. my favorite is the same size so we can share clothes but i’ll take a tall lady if she’ll spoon me and keep me warm at night.

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Q: Pete, kisses on the forehead or kisses in the rain?
A: kisses on the forehead are for grandmas and sick kids. in the rain. “im so dirty babe”

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Q: Pete, whats your take on Jersey?… oh and whos your favorite band ever to come out of jersey?
A: i love new jersey and jersey girls have cute accents. favorite jersey bands in order: bon jovi springsteen lifetime old savestheday my chemical romance the early november new saves the day midtown

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Q: are there any bands fob fights with? you know, like a 50 cent ja rule type of thing?
A: yeah… why else do you think my chemical romance wears bullet proof vests? cause we aim ourz gatz at they facez

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Q: peter, would you ever date someone 13 years younger then you? or at least be friends with them? p.s you are hot and i love you
A: i don’t want to go to jail. im little and i think i would get passed around like a pack of cigarettes. but thank you that is really sweet. i don’t really want to do pushups in a drag…

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Q: For real, do you and my chemical romance not get along? If so, this is upsetting
A: no, actually they are some of our best friends, me and mikey have a gang called “the sweet little dudes”. that was a joke hence all the use of words with “z” instead of “s”

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Q: I have a favor to ask. Could you pretty please thank My Chemical Romance for me?! during there set at the tweeter, some asshole punched my friend corey in the ribs w/brass knuckles. gerard noticed him on the floor and the band stopped playing & didnt start again until they were sure he was out safe on a stretcher. anywho… you guys rocked the other day. and the crowd was the best of all the ones i was in throughout the day. everyone was definitly looking out for each other. and it was just… awesomely rad. its tru… theres nothing like driving towards the skyline. 
A: i think we’re gonna have to set up a seperate q and a just for our my chem questions and requests. good thing they are good friends of ours… and thanks for the nice words.

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Q: How do you feel about being nominated for the MTV2 awarad? How do you feel about being nominated along with your friends My Chemical Romance?
A: we’re excited that our fans like the video and we are happy for my chem… just a little sibling rivalry but it is all in good fun…

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Q: did mikey rub it in your face that they were number 1 on trl on friday?
A: me and mikey are in a gang called the sweet little dudes. there is no competition. we are happy when our friends are doing well.

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during bamboozle festival in ‘05, both fob and my chem played in jersey, and mikey was seen to be sidestage or close by watching fob play. pete also had a livejournal (because pete has basically had every fucking blog known to man at some point in his life), and it was not too long after bamboozle, in may of ‘05 that he updated listing the things that got him “hot and bothered”, two of which were:

1. having a crush on a person I speak to near daily
2. White denim jackets

WHITE DENIM JACKETS GUYS ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

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THE SUMMER OF LIKE

okay take a deep breath or something idk whatever nothing can help you now anyway YOU’RE FUCKING SCREWED

so both fob and mcr played warped in 2005 also known by many as the SUMMER OF LIKE. there were a few fan reports of mikey watching fob sidestage but nothing really until pete started posting in his blogspot, this is where it gets REALLY FUN and you have to remember how to do necessary things like fucking BREATHE…….

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Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Amazing new mexico sunset. I’m hanging on a bridge with my friend mikey way from my chem. Its all orange and pink above us. We went to another waterpark again. I love high fives again. Totally back in love. Saw the most amazing movie… I think its called spirited away. Watch it.
Peterpan

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TOTALLY BACK IN LOVE. um. and then, not too long after that, on July 4, he posted an entry which ends with: hot and miserable but totally in love.

i know, the fic fucking writes itself. you could not make this shit up man. so after that there’s a long succession of entries from pete in which he is incredibly cryptic, but really really not cryptic enough bc PETE WENTZ SUCKS AT SUBTLETY (see earlier statement of: pete wentz wouldn’t know subtlety if it hit him over the head with his own fucking bass)

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Thursday, July 7, 2005
hey beauties. hotness on warped tour. checking in. just stealing an internet signal from our friends in My Chem. speaking of, we are really excited to have them on the TRL countdown with us! good music is taking over again. 

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i heart leslie simon. go listen to maximo park before you fall asleep. it will make you smile 

and miss someone/something you love.

"i sleep with my hands across my chest and dream of you with someone else…"

keep on living (forever).

xo peter

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ALSO the maximo park song he is referencing here (i am a HUGE maximo park fan ugh, they’re from my hometown and it’s still kind of weird that pete wentz is a fan of a once little band from the north-east of england, but i digress), is called “going missing”, and you can listen to it here, also listen to/read the rest of the lyrics, because well: well how it started i will never know, but now I’ve reached my limit, and of course, this can’t go on so i should just regret it, regret it, regret it. like, the entire song is quite relevant to what may be going on with mikey. read it as you will, kids

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Monday, July 11, 2005
Soooo its been a dramafree summer so far which is amazing. Almost as good as swimming pools and sleepovers. I’m watching the notebook does that make me sucky? Circle y or n. I need to take a shower. Nobody likes a dirty boy.

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Friday, July 15, 2005
Though I am over hearing your thoughts on haircuts and pants. I’m over us trying to be perfect tens for your little eyes. We don’t care what you think of us. Listen to a song and time your heartbeat. Let it be okay to fall asleep slow tonight. Think about a good friend. Think about god. Think about death. Think about someone elses hand clumsily on your belt in the dark. Think it will be okay.

No more rants
No more poetry
Not tonight.

True love for the believers. Thank you. Keep on l i/o ving
posted by: peterpumpkineater

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Sunday, July 24, 2005
Sometimes when you’re feeling this blue the right smile can save you.
posted by: peter

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collective AWWWW for that last one pls, why the fuck do i ship this shit ugh. okay. so like at some point between these entries, pete also posted at his fueled by ramen journal. on july 17, he posted this:

wrote you a goodbye note (you just wrote me off) on your arm when you passed out. bestfriends, exfriends- better off as lovers not the other way around. racing through the city in the back of yellow checkered cars. the takeoffs are the worst but the skin from your shoulder to your ear makes it all worth it. and im sorry the way my moods flicker on and off like old light on your porch, but i know you wouldn’t have it any other way. sneaking in your window instead of out. the way you hold a cigarette cause you don’t know what to do with your hands when we are sitting this close. the way the waists of pants feel better at the ankles. the way you always were my best excuse for calling in sick on everyone else. i miss you.
petey

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STOP THE RIDE I WANT TO GET OFF

this is the part where all i start wanting is to cut my heart out of my chest with a rusty butter knife… this entry later became the song “bang the doldrums” on fob’s album infinity on high (oh we’ll get to that album later). what’s super interesting is to note the differences between what it was originally to the lyrics it became. bc yeah, there’s a few note-worthy differences, the first being that lipstick was added into it (i wrote a goodbye note in lipstick on your arm…) which is widely speculated to have been added to make it sound a lot more like he is talking about a girl. the latter part about “the waists of pants feel better at the ankles” also wasn’t part of the song…… the implications are there. there and making me long for a nice stroll… off a cliff into a dark abyss where this can’t hurt me anymore

the best part about this fucking dumb, soul-destroying song is that it was originally titled “summer of like”, which pete briefly mentioned in a rolling stone interview which i now CAN’T FIND :( and which is of course the fandom’s name for that time period. thus the term became CANON. yep.

how about NOPE

so, as mentioned previously there are very few photos of pete and mikey together at warped ‘05, or at all actually. according to fan reports they generally refused to have their picture taken together (which unless you have something to HIDE, is a little odd y/y?). they were however, frequently seen walking the grounds together, and mikey was often seen by the clandestine (pete’s clothing line) tent. in faaaaact,on the subject of clandestine, dear mikey wore it quite a bit:

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but yeah, saaaadly we have very few pictures of them together at warped, except THESE (which aren’t great quality even but the fact that they exist is MONUMENTAL)

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actually i have no idea when that pic above where mikey is snuggling pete and breaking my heart apart was from, but here’s a pic of what looks like the same night of pete in mikey’s glasses, for extra heartbreak!

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we do however have photos of both bands on stage and oh this is good shit. so, during warped ‘05, my chem and fob seemed to enjoy trading band members, which was really fun! mikey would often fill in on bass for pete so pete could take his mic into the crowd. pete also liked to sit and watch mikey play on occasion, no seriously he just likeD to sit there and watch his bOYFRIEND play, with a dumb smile on his face, nbd:

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his face and expression and tiny legs are dumb and i want to punch myself in the face :( :( :(

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his smile makes me want to kms

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among the maaaaaaany fan reports of mikey and pete being seen together quite a whole lot at warped, there was also this, which, welllllll:

at my warped date i got there early in the morning and hung out by the fob bus because i wanted to get a pic with patrick and around 10 am the door opened and a very tired looking mikey stepped off with pete right behind him and they appeared to be holding hands until they saw the people around and they both refused to have their pictures taken together :[

which kind of really suggests mikey spent the night on fob’s tour bus. also um, hand-holding, guys. HAND-HOLDING…….. what_makes_you_haha.mp3

fan reports have also said that pete was known to DEDICATE SONGS TO MIKEY while he was watching them play their set, and calling mikey out on stage to dedicate a song to “mikey revenge.” one fan report says:

Lastly, during Fall Out Boy’s set (they were one of the closing bands that night) they dedicated one of the songs to Mikey, who was watching from the side of the stage. Pete said, “This song is about revenge. Right, Mikey? Revenge!” Mikey smiled and nodded, and during “Grand Theft Autumn/Where is Your Boy” he mouthed along to all the words.

can i quit this life yet? also note-worthy, mikey’s myspace then became mikey revenge not a whole long after warped. and ALSO, pete started wearing an “i ♥ revenge” t-shirt, which he made for his clandestine clothing line……. hahahaha… ha… no:

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pete also posted a vaguely (read: very very very very) suggestive picture on his friendsorenemies account, which is interestinggggggg:

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I WISH YOU WERE MY BASS NOT JUST MY FRIEND

get the fuck out, peter lewis kingston wentz iii, just GET OUT

i’m suuuuuure you can all figure out the meaning for yourselves. since, you know, pete liked to molest his bass on a daily basis - he licked it a lot….  this was also posted post-warped when he and mikey were no longer in the same place/together, so. my personal conclusion is that he wishes he were his bass mostly so he could spend every day with him and ~other stuff

also there’s this:

August 19, 2005
Warped tour was fun. Since being home I remembered that showering and sleeping are fun too. My real feelings on the sunburst bass. I loved that thing. But then it started cheating on me with mikey way. I had to hit it. Its not my fault- spousal abuse is an ugly thing. I’m in therapy that includes playing lots of warcraft online. Writing messages on your arm for someone to see at a show is the new away message - stealing peoples real diary is the new livejournal.

pls note the “writing messages on your arm for someone to see at a show is the new away message” and then take a look at these photos of mikey and then eat a generous scoop of ice-cream or s/t idk whatever the fuck helps (nothing helps)

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*cough* not saying a word

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POST-WARPED

in september of ‘05, pete posted this:

September 4th, 2005
on the getaway car, the rush of blood to the head: it’s strange to find myself again back at the feelings of the blue cover after going through the red and the gold. its kind of always like that. i am sorry if i am not making any sense. but everybody likes to take chances and make bets. i always put my money on the longshots. and no matter where my head was in the world i always dreamed of waking up next to the biggest brown eyes i have ever seen/’meandyouunderneaththehoneymoon’. “go back to what it meant back then”: and you imagine yourself moving deep into the summer and disappearing, and for me it was always with you. and then things got crazy. you stopped calling me back. i stopped trying to call but not in my head. and then you got malicious but i’m guessing only because you learned from the best- take back your taste and all. i never thought it would be just me again. but that’s okay. we’re gonna hole up and wait it out. i feel like i can see for the first time, like i was born just in the last minute. wake me up. baby boy, you’re gonna be okay. hearts between our knees sticking to the summer sheets. are you catching my drift…. its gonna be alright. your love would be hell but its just not hot enough baby.

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it is of course fucking cryptic bc cryptic is pete’s default mode, except he fucking fails at subtlety no matter how many metaphors he uses. but like, mentions of summer (deep into the summer, and, knees sticking to the summer sheets), and the feeling of being blue again after the red and gold, which implies he was happy during the summer of warped, but after, not so much. COME THE FUCK ON.

U G H

then there was this:

asked by Meghan! on 2005-11-13 17:05:00
hey! i was just wondering, how good are you friends with mikey way??

answered by peter on 2005-11-13 17:07:00
me and mikey are not in just one gang together, we are in two: the sweet little dudes and the fraternal order of the handsome boy. i call him the duke of handsomeness.

now, this is when their second gang that i mentioned previously, “the fraternal order of the handsome boy”, becomes very, very interesting. i think this is the first mention of it?? but yeah remember it, because it’s very important later

at the end of 2005, just before christmas, mikey got engaged to guitar tech, merch seller and bassist, alicia simmons. note however, that alicia has said that she and mikey were not together during warped ‘05. also note-worthy it’s possible that alicia and pete dated at some point, as far as i know this has not been confirmed as fact nor rumor however??? but it’s kind of interesting anyway

GOD BLESS HALLELUJAH PRAISE THE LORD etc. because on feb 19 2006 we suddenly got this little gem from pete’s friendsorenemies journal:

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S T O P

and also, not quite as happy bc that’s just how this ship rolls, from his fueled by ramen journal:

2/19/2006 - 4:02 AM EST
i feel like howl from howls moving castle embodies every single feeling that goes through my head. that is all. i am in the lobby of a hotel in new york city waiting for something that isn’t ever going to happen. i am calculating all of the legs and drunken stutters. i am precise. i am a machine. i am a hot mess.
- petey

WAITING FOR SOMETHING THAT ISN’T EVER GOING TO HAPPEN *bathes in acid* the fact that this entry coincides with seeing mikey again is, well, fucking suspicious at the least lbr

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SAVED LATIN

on march 4 2006, mikey attended the absolut kravitz launch party in nyc w/ pete and joe and probably others, and then the next day fob played a secret show under the name: saved latin. during this show they brought mikey onstage to play bass and sometimes i want to drown myself bc of it :) :) :)

pictures:

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pete’s possessive arm tho /o\

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stop that smile right now mikeyway

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why am i alive

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then of course the picture,. THE FUCKING PICTURE. which i fondly like to refer as the BOYFRIENDS PHOTO. bc seriously, this picture screams boyfriends

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ahahaha ha ha h h ha 

nbd

HQ close up of above boyfriends picture. also note-worthy: mikey is wearing clandestine fingerless gloves, which pete has worn:

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there’s an article on the secret show by MTV here for anyone interested, and also here is a short video of mikey playing bass on dance, dance:



(and an even shorter one)

also sometime around this time, pete’s Naked Pictures were leaked, which i’m pretty sure we’ve all seen. which brings us to the HeyChris Situation :/ HeyChris is an author and was pete’s friend, you may or may not know of him from fob’s grenade jumper (hey chris, you were our only friend etc.). though he swears he didn’t leak the Naked Pictures (if you want to read his view on the Naked Pictures matter, go to his livejournal and read the entries from march of ‘06), he did post an open letter to pete (which i have somewhere, if anyone wants it) in which basically, he called pete out on trying to steal his girlfriend/turning his girlfriend against him. but also there’s this:

you know the friends i have and you know how we feel about loyalty.
you know who im talking about and you know they’re not happy either

which on it’s own i wouldn’t flag, but then the chris and mikey pictures happened. not too long after that, chris posted again saying he’d “found a new love”, and then there were the pictures:

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following this, pete apparently put up a very angry away message, which is very elusive (i’ve only ever been able to find dead links to it, woe) and if anyone has it, you get a brownie, or tissues and hugs of comfort because we’re not even close to being done with this shitstorm of a ship. but basically, pete was not happy, and chris later that day claimed it was just a sick joke or s/t idk

basically the way i see it, chris wanted to get back at pete for his alleged attempts at trying to steal his girlfriend, he did this by using mikey, which implies that chris viewed mikey as someone that meant a great deal to pete and someone that he perhaps had/has feelings for. why mikey agreed to this, idk he might have been upset about it too. BUT has been stated that the reasoning for the photos was basically a fuck you to everyone who used the word gay as an insult, so, there’s that. and as far as i know, mikey (and alicia) is/was actually really good friends with chris? IDK like either the pictures were posted to get back at pete or it was just terrible, terrible timing. or a little bit of both. also, mikey apparently defended pete at his myspace when the Naked Pictures were leaked.

annnnnnnd speaking of away messages (but not of the angry kind this time), pete liked to mention mikey in them:

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pete also liked to take mikey with him everywhere he went, in the form of a pin badge, of course:

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that coupled with the “love can’t save you” hoody, always makes me epically SAD, gosh. anyway…

there was also the mickey mouse:

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THE DAYS OF DOOM AND GLOOM

in the summer of ‘06, a year after the summer of like, we got a string of interesting and heart-breaking journal entries from pete at his blogspot. while we don’t //really// have any idea whether any of it’s to do with mikey (it is), i think mostly it all speaks for itself. it was a year since warped okay and pete was probably feeling incredibly nostalgic about the whole thing or s/t. that’s my headcanon okay. now. i advise hand-holding and tissues for this…..

Friday, July 07, 2006

im so sorry, but not really. (‘straighten up and die right’)

i said i want to be rebuilt like a frank lloyd wright only without all of the water damage. or painted over like a monet only less blurry. she said “no, youre something different”. like what? “something better”. it gave me the rush of warm blood like you see in cartoon dogs right before their eyes pop out and all of the bells go off. my head is spinning like a car off of an icy guardrail. show me what you are made of. your eyes were always rolling but youd tilt your head so they were somehow always still stuck on me (have your cake and eat it too). i feel safe but not like a bet more like the way mothers feel when the lock the car doors in bad neighborhoods. i am blue waves across the red rootlike veins in the bodies drawn flat in medical books. i wonder at the way that someone can write thousands and thousands of pages about my insides. when i met you i gave you a name- not your own- but in my head so i wouldnt ever mix you up with anyone so ordinary- i cant tell you- but to me it meant salvation. you only wanted reaction. but i cant be bothered. not anymore. ill see you in the spring. first pew on the left. wear your white veil and dont forget the words. warped tour. sun drenched days. bestfriends. new roads. so long salvation. dont worry your pretty little heads. i am sleeping safe tonight.

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first of all DIRECT MENTION TO WARPED. idk pete seems to be calling warped his salvation, but then saying goodbye to that salvation at the end. ugh okay i’m not going to sit and analyze every word bc it speaks for itself (and my heart hurts just looking at it)

after that it only gets worse. remember this that I mentioned before?:

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well, in july of ‘06, pete posted this in his blogspot:

saturday, july 08, 2006

the fraternal order of the handsome boy.

ive been watching you from afar. my breath on the inside window as you walk in from the carcandy caned lies in red and white against clashing patterns bending in and out of understanding. ”youre the stranger ive been dreaming of”, stranger than any ive ever known. love through a telescopic lens. when the air is clear i can see how perfect you are for me. late at night when the city sleeps i cast a spell on you to make you think of me the very same way i think of you. i only love how the words feel in my head when i write them. fireworks over the valley. how can i tell you i gut people for a living. that everything you say is likely to end up as evidence when i rewrite history. over and over again. how everything you do reminds me of something else, someone else. how i get paid to be humble and arrogant at the same time,to be chased and never caught. that i just want to stay up late and wake up early to talk to you. that i want to show you all of my jealousy and insecurity and have you not care. youre like a light switch and i just want to turn you on and watch them all shrink away. the words come out of my fingertips on impulse. it is instinct. my head cant keep up. i envy the comatose. i admire the bedridden. i am addicted to the way i feel when i think of you. ”im blowing smoke rings around the moon….” i wish i was the exact opposite of how the world knows me.

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i have tissues for anyone in dire need of them, take one and pass them the fuck on. with the post being titled the fraternal order of the handsome boy, and that being one of pete and mikey’s dumb gangs, i think we’re quite safe to assume that this is probably about mikey y/y/y?? :( :(. also, the line “i cast a spell on you to make you think of me the very same way i think of you” may sound familiar as it made it into that aforementioned song that is clearly about mikey, aka bang the doldrums, i cast a spell over the west to make you think of me, the same way i think of you.

my fucking soul is bleeding

and finally:

sunday, august 27, 2006

there is one single pair of eyes that could ever decode any of this. put another “x” on the calendar. summer is on its deathebd. there is simply nothing worse than knowing the ending- that no matter what curve balls or uphill come your way- it still turns out the same. this year its stripes and pumps, last year it was dancefloors and you. she keeps talking, i keep staying the same. did you ever change your mind about someone and then just realize it was a fucking haircut. put me in a frame on your wall, just to keep me out of trouble. i gotta say i admire bob dylan for being honest about his new record. noone ever is. its like when the ad campaign rolls out everyone is smiling and at their best even if they are not sure. an affectionate friend told me everything i ever needed to know about anything. “freeze! put down that fucking laptop!”. everything is always either digging a hole or digging yourself out of one. and just when you have it all figured out you should just sift through your pile of “never again”s. quite a collection. blow off the dust. im sure they will be worth something to someone sometime. its buzzing in the back of your head and out of your fingertips. pull back the shade- the road outside of my house is paved with good intentions. but it is hell on the undercarriage of the car so we’re gonna have to hire a construction crew. i wonder if anyone else things of you as much as i do, even you.

"If I should call you up, invest a dime
And you say you belong to me and ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be, so very fine
So happy together…”

a mutual misunderstanding. kaleidoscope eyes sparkle on pillows in the dark. and i dont care what anyone thinkgs of that except me. put the love on hold, anticipation is on the other line and excitement called while you were out. imagine me and you…..

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THIS SHIP IS THE WORST FUCKING THING THAT’S EVER HAPPENED TO ME

also some of that entry (the bits about summer, and the anticipation is on the other line…) actually made it into a panic! at the disco song, the calendar, which you can listen to here. again with the recurring theme of summer and talking about the year before. just. yeah.

i am so done

i was done a long time ago

i’m living in hell

also, few other important things:

pete has also stated before that he is gay above the waist, to quote him in an AP interview, “a lot of people say that i’m gay, in general. i’m an above-the-waist gay kind of guy.” which doesn’t need explaining, i’m sure. what’s interesting about that is the line alluding to that in bang the doldrums: happily ever after below the waist. juuuuust something to consider. or never consider. it’s better for your sanity if you don’t. tho if you’re looking for sanity you’re in the wrong place sorry

honestly we have next to nothing on mikey’s side about this whole time period, whether this is because mikey is generally a very private person or for another reason entirely, no one really knows. but we do have this, which isn’t exactly the most convincing denial ever tbh:

5) Me and pete wentz aren’t dating. We are both heterosexual males….sort of…maybe…umm…next!

phew okay, end of part one. take a breath, or a million. there will now be an interval in which i advise you to cry a lot, eat a mountain of ice-cream and maybe watch the notebook. because it wasn’t over and it still isn’t over.

[INTERVAL]

okay hi so after ‘06, there is a lot less to give you regarding their friendship/relationship. it’s probably important to note that in 2006, during the recording of the black parade, mikey temporarily left the band due to his severe depression, which may or may not be relevant. but, for timeline purposes and because :( mikey :( it’s important to mention. it in fact reached a point where he became suicidal and couldn’t function in the band anymore, thus left the paramour mansion where they were recording, to get psychiatric help. :( :( thankfully, he got better. he also dyed his hair and got laser eye surgery and therefore parted ways with those trademark glasses! 

soooo for a long while there seemed to be a lot less communication between them, at least publically. obv however mikey was working on my chemical romance’s album, the black parade, and pete was working on fall out boy’s album, infinity on high. so, fast-forward to ‘07. which brings us to the aforementioned FOB album.

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INFINITY ON HIGH

there’s been a fair few mentions of bang the doldrums so far, it’s generally agreed upon in fandom that the song is about mikey and the summer of warped ‘05 due to the fact that the song was essentially born on warped, as seen in pete’s journal entry, coupled with the fact that it was originally titled summer of like ;_____; also, if we’re going with that (we are) it’s interesting to note the line  i couldn’t bring myself to call, except to call it quits, which would imply pete brought an end to the relationship. :(

concerning the rest of the album: basically, though I’m not going to list every lyric ever that could possibly be about mikey and/or the summer of like bc wow too many… there are songs on the album other than bang the doldrums that //could/ be about him, so you know…………..

um so after that not much else happened with them publically? like, mikey judged a karaoke night in march ‘08 at angels and kings, nyc (a nightclub opened by and part-owned by pete) but that’s it

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AND THEN

TWITTER HAPPENED

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it tastes like you

it tastes like you

it tastes like you

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laughing so i don’t cry

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not crying just have otp in my eye

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SEEMS ABOUT RIGHT

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W H Y

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favorite

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MIKEY WAY IS SWEETNESS

SWEETNESS

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tweeted on mikey’s birthday……..

and finally a more recent one:

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so yeah this has been a post about pete/mikey and to conclude i would like to say: NO :) bc it’s the only emotion i feel anymore :) idek why i still ship this fucking shit

sorry for any pain caused but i can’t be held liable

xoxo

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